long time...w/ not writing

i'm not really sure why i am actually writing this. nobody takes time to read it, and i'm not even sure anyone knows that it exists. never-the-less maybe someone will read it, and actually care about my opinions, and i might be the next governor. well, i doubt it. but a girl can dream.

anyway. these past few uh...months have been pretty intense and filled w/ busyness. tho, i'm not sure if thats the only way to describe it. i guess so. i mean, i have done nothing but run since may, and i finally had a weekend to sleep in uh, two weeks ago. bah. maybe i should slow down. it's taking a toll on my health. *laughs*

well. confusion seems to be a part of my life, but slowly it's twisting out of the knot that i've made it. i guess life is supposed to be simple....but seems to me it's not. i guess, I make it that way? but i find everyone and everything else to blame but me. "oh they need me here," "oh but i can fill that in" " ooo kudos for me if i do that"........*sigh*. maybe i should just slow down and breathe. but then im afraid ill get nothing done.....

well. i guess thats all for now. must go watch tv shows now :)
love to all in Christ